samedi

i wish i didn't have to hide behind words to say something real.

but i do, so this perhaps will be the only time i ever get closed to doing just that, the things i wish i could say more easily.


one arm on the floor
as the other pushes away

questions; what is this feeling
is this shall the tides shall turn

against construction
contre la vie

dreams become wishes
whispers in a not so virgin ear

lords who watch as the night falls
one hand grasping the floor
one thought floating in the air

an infection rotting from inside to out
a lost reflection
sin and doubt

left contrasting
a fall forever lasting
pits of dreary envy

as that hand searches out for serenity
a lost cause
a fallen angel

the saviour forgot to name him gabriel
without a second thought now
nor action that could salvage

peace to you
from the lord's mouth

and,

as that hand falls to the floor
rests the secrets of a night
delirious yet discrete

in two seperate directions
we find ourselves
yet what is left
the questions we ask

when nothing is left
and the saviour
is watching
during the depart of my own dignity.